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Monday, August 28, 2006

Mon, 28 Aug 2006 16:19:01 GMT

We put so much stock into originality. But I wonder, In this day and age, is there even such a thing as original thought? Think of the millions upon millions of people who have walked this earth. Is there a sentence that has never been uttered? A thought that has never been thought? A conversation that has never been repeated? And how would we ever know?

We are all products of our environment and genetics. We are molded by the society in which we live. How much of what I say is actually my own? How many times have you said "I was just about to say that"? Or "That sounds just like something I could have written myself"?

Does originality even exist anymore?

I would sure hope so.

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 16:33:54 GMT

You scored as Blue. Your heart is blue. You are a very calm and relaxed person. You are very caring and like helping others. You're grateful for what you have in life, even if it's not perfect. People love you for who you are, don\'t ever change that- it's what makes you the great person that you are.

Blue

82%

Pink

68%

Yellow

64%

Orange

39%

White

39%

Black

32%

Purple

32%

Red

25%

Green

21%

~What colour is your heart?~
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Monday, June 05, 2006

Mon, 05 Jun 2006 15:55:27 GMT

Wrote this not too long ago, tentative title "Perhaps a Little Lewd..."

Fuck.
Days like these
At least combined with nights like last,
Make it hard to concentrate
My mind keeps wandering
Back to events from just hours ago

I nearly caught myself drooling
As I undressed the bank teller with my eyes
It's as if my sexual awareness has been heightened
It's like, "Hello..."
"Yes, I was here this whole time,
Just now, I'm on overdrive."

And now I'm wondering,
"When's that going to happen again?"

Sunday, April 16, 2006

Sun, 16 Apr 2006 08:34:11 GMT

Now and then I confess you cross my mind
Now and then I guess I have a little too much time
I've changed my way of thinking
I've tried hard to separate
What came too soon
From what came too late

(chorus)
I don't think about me in terms of you
I don't think about you in terms of us
I don't think about us in terms of love
I don't think about then in terms of now
I found a way to start again somehow
I don't think about what we thought it was
Oh, in terms of love

Oh, in terms of love

I'm countin' on heaven to understand
I didn't mean to go and mess up all the plans
Sometimes you know where you should go
Before you know the way
I'll bother with tomorrow
Once I've made it through today

(chorus)
I don't think about me in terms of you
I don't think about you in terms of us
I don't think about us in terms of love
I don't think about then in terms of now
I found a way to start again somehow
I don't think about what we thought it was
Oh, in terms of love

I don't think about black in terms of gray
Or revelations in the light of day
I don't think about cold in terms of ice
Or second chances happenin' twice

(chorus)
I don't think about me in terms of you
I don't think about you in terms of us
I don't think about us in terms of love
I don't think about then in terms of now
I found a way to start again somehow
I don't think about what we thought it was
Oh, in terms of love

In terms of love
Oh, yeah
Oh, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah
I don't think about us in terms of love

~song by SheDaisy

This song inspired me to write this:

We'll call it "How"

How?

It's been so long
Yet a specific memory
Can cause a downpour
And it feels as fresh
As if it happened yesterday

And the pain returns

I guess sometimes
We just don't stop loving

~Amanda

Monday, February 06, 2006

Mon, 06 Feb 2006 16:52:28 GMT

***Your Birthdate: April 20***

You are a virtual roller coaster of emotions, and most people enjoy the ride.
Your mood tends to set the tone of the room, and when you're happy, this is a good thing.
When you get in a dark mood, watch out - it's very hard to get you out of it.
It's sometimes hard for you to cheer up, and your gloom can be contagious.

Your strength: Your warm heart

Your weakness: Trouble controlling your emotions

Your power color: Black

Your power symbol: Musical note

Your power month: February

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?
http://www.blogthings.com/whatdoesyourbirthdatemeanquiz/

Thursday, September 22, 2005

Thu, 22 Sep 2005 15:14:58 GMT

i carry your heart with me (i carry it in
my heart) i am never without it (anywhere
i go you go, my dear; and whatever is done
by only me is your doing, my darling)
i fear
no fate (for you are my fate, my sweet) i want
no world (for beautiful you are my world, my true)
and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant
and whatever a sun will always sing is you

here is the deepest secret nobody knows
(here is the root of the root and the bud of the bud
and the sky of the sky of a tree called life; which grows
higher than soul can hope or mind can hide)
and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart

i carry your heart (i carry it in my heart)

-ee cummings

.....

This would be the poem stuck in my head today. The line "and it's you are whatever a moon has always meant and whatever a sun will always sing is you" is my favorite. I also love "and this is the wonder that's keeping the stars apart".

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 00:08:33 GMT

"Wondering"

His memory remains
At times more vibrant than others
And now that's all it seems to be

There is a fondness
That I used to know
Related to his name

He is the song
That never stopped singing

I wonder if the heart I left behind
Is recognizable

I wonder how he is

I wonder if he thinks of me

Sunday, July 17, 2005

Sun, 17 Jul 2005 15:00:33 GMT

"And wishing will not make it so"

That need to write is aching again...maybe I'll locate it eventually.

A cute bartender. Compliments flying all over the place. He thinks I'm "cute" also. A fun evening. A lunch date. A decent enough time.

But somehow it just isn't enough. It never seems to be. Will it ever?

Friday, June 17, 2005

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 06:13:39 GMT

You are a little bit evil, now arent you? Id be afraid of you You tend to be fiery and a little bit feisty. When people annoy you, you have no problem telling them so. Your idea of fun if someone elses idea of mean. Mischievous, sly, tricky, and maybe just mean. Thats you.

Monday, June 13, 2005

Mon, 13 Jun 2005 23:21:10 GMT

http://www.hotlanta.com/helltest.htm

Hell Test!

Score: 185. You're a danger to society. Who let you out on a day pass?

Take it and let me know what you get!